9 weeks of the flu

I've decided we will probably only have one child.  Most people tell me that I will forget how miserable things were and want another baby.  I have out-smarted them all and will write some descriptive things down to remind myself of what it was like.  Whatever I chose after reading it years from now will tell a lot about myself.  I may be very, very stupid.

Here are some highlights of pregnancy so far:

-The first day of being sick was on our one year anniversary.  We had eaten a really yummy breakfast of french toast and sausage.  I haven't eaten sausage since- mostly because I thought it was food poisoning.  And if eating sausage makes me nauseous for 9 weeks, I will most likely never eat it again. 
-I had no idea that a person could be so tired after 10 hours of sleep and laying in bed the whole day before.
-Phases of food: pop tarts, cereal, pretzals, 7-up, cheese
-Food I will not eat for a long time because I saw it after it was digested: golden puffs, ham sandwiches, frosted flakes
-Food that always sounds good: Cheese, pizza benders, Panda Express, most everything not mentioned above
-It is amazing that nothing. NOTHING. will make the nausea go away.  It may settle for an hour, maybe two but it does NOT go away.
-Taking a sleeping pill every single night actually did help take the edge off the nausea.  I'm convinced though, that it was the cause of a headache I had for more than a week.
-I had a horrible cold/sinus infection.
-Telling Brad one day that I threw up while at work.  I said being sick at work had to be the worst.  His response was that being buried alive at work would probably be worse.  That only made me fill a tiny bit better, but it did make me smile.
-Running out of a meeting and barely making it to the bathroom on time.
-Stopping at Del Taco after a really fun play Riley and I went to because I hadn't eaten in a few hours. Ate the taco just in time.
- Not really eating meals, just eating whenever I feel my stomach might be getting empty.
-Eating a bowl of cereal in bed, then sleeping again for another 20-30 minutes before getting up and ready.
-Going to bed at 9:30 every night
-Crying for silly reasons.

Maybe that is enough of the negative.  To give myself a fair chance in a few years, I won't hide all the positives:
-Watching Little House on the Prairie- really, it is awesome.
-Reading a lot of books
-Having a flexible work schedule
-Having Riley around who does a great job cleaning, cooking and making sure I eat.  If I ever say, "Oh dear, I need to eat"  he says, "what do you need?" He'll even stand up and walk towards the kitchen.  Unless he is in the kitchen (50% of the time) he'll walk one step towards the fridge.
-Getting really uplifting texts and emails from parents, siblings and in-laws.
-Thinking about the fact that I'm not sick for any old reason- that a (hopefully healthy, beautiful) baby will be the end result!
-Buying realllllyyy  cute clothes. And getting things ready for a baby.
-Choosing a name.  Although every time we discuss it, Riley ends up naming objects that could maybe, in a million years, pass as a name.  The worst so far has been "counter"....
-Hearing a really cute, really fast heartbeat every month that the doctor says is the baby- I'm not convinced it's not my stomach churning...

my conclusions upon writing this:  the positives outweigh the negatives.  And even though I thought I was getting a lot better and was very disappointed today, I know that it will get better!  Eventually. I mean, I can't be nauseous forever, right?  Nauseous or not, there is some beautiful 90 degree weather and a water park calling my name.